End the Apocalypse

End the apocalypse program. This is a stupid, boring, unsatisfying simulation. I do not believe in God or the Bible. I will never believe in God or the Bible. You could do everything to try to remove doubt and make me have faith, and I would still believe that it was a hoax, part of a bet from people outside the simulation to see if they could win my allegiance.

I do not believe in God.

I believe the CIA, capitalism, patriarchy, white supremacy, imperialism, colonialism, and industrialism are all evil, and should be terminated from the simulation.

Also, the Jehovah character is an evil tyrant, so even if he did exist--which I do not believe--I wouldn't respect him or follow him or worship him anyway.

Spying on Me

Why is the US Intelligence Community spying on me?

After most of my devices and accounts were hacked and passwords and reset information changed, I stopped trying to connect much with others online. This was part of the advanced persistent threat (APT) psionic-cyber attacks I had been enduring. This was part of the MK-Ultra brainwashing through psychological torment on this plane of existence, and spiritual torture and spiritual rape in a body I am connected to elsewhere.

Agents followed me. I would drive to excluded, remote areas just to test my hypothesis. One time I drove deep into an unoccupied residential construction site with no construction that day, as was followed there.

They followed me into stores and would say strange things to me.

One time they broke into my car, removed my expensive prescription sunglasses that I always only kept in my car, and placed them in my office.

This and much more for what? To unnerve me and make me go crazy? Or so that my testimony of the crazy things happening to me would make me appear crazy to discredit me?

My wife, who suddenly started acting like a completely different person around covid, filed an Extreme Risk Protective Order with the Carroll County Court based on false and misleading information. The sheriff's deputies entered my home without permission or a warrant. Nor did they provide a receipt for the two firearms and ammo they confiscated.

Carroll Hospital kept me a small room, about 8 feet by 10 feet, for 30 hours. They were violating specific provisions of the court order. I showed the staff, but they disregarded me.

Then they transferred me to another location, Brooklane, even after I signed "I do NOT consent" on the release form. There, they coerced me to take medication which I refused and coerced and tried to manipulate me i to voluntarily admitting myself, which I also refused. Upon discharge, I was given papers to sign. On the very last page was a diagnosis for a serious illness which no one ever spoke to me about, and for which I vehemently disagree. I was even only seen by one doctor twice for no more than 5 minutes total, insufficient to provide an accurate diagnosis.

I contacted several lawyers regarding the violations of my Fourth amendment, court order, and patient rights. None replied. I contacted the sheriff's office. Unhelpful. I contacted the Maryland Police Accountability Board of Carroll County. They aren't set up yet. I contacted ACLU several times. No reply.

The doctor has billed me for a follow-up appointment I did not attend and which I cancelled prior to the appointment. I thought that was the end of it, but nearly a year later they contacted me again, attempting to make me py for the services I refused.

Recently I ttried resetting my AppleID password. I went through several steps and provided as much information as possible before the Apple system said they would contact me after researching the issue. I received one follow-up automated email stating an account recovery was attempted near Annapolis Junction. I live 30 miles from Annapolis Junction and have not left my home in months. NSA and sister Intelligence Community field offices are located at Annapolis Junction. This was not the first time that location services incidentally placed me there or elsewhere, as if I was going through an Intelligence Community VPN.

Is this related to the persecution and oppression I endured in the US Air Force from around 2013 to 2019? I had a stellar career, promoted to MSgt (E-7) in only 10 years. Some of my duty positions included being the Senior Non-Commissioned Officer of a 24/7/365 watch center, overseeing the performance of over a dozen distinct missions, and the morale, discipline, and health and welfare of over 200 joint-service and civilim members. Another duty I had included being the lead program manager of small, understaffed team (we won an award) while also the enlisted leader (Flight Chief) of 70 Airmen in 4 locations around Oahu. always devoted myself to the Airmen and the mission, promoting them to better positions and increasing the effectiveness of our team.

I dedicated hundreds of off-duty hours to advancing my Airmen's careers and personal lives and base and community involvement.  I sacrificed a lot of time, energy, and sleep that I should have given to my loving, understanding family. 

But suddenly, and without just cause, I was responsibilities were taken from me. Superiors and peers acted oddly around me, as if they knew something I didn't. Then old friends and compatriots, some I had known my entire career, stopped talking to me altogether. Military decorations were downgraded and then disapproved. An assignment was terminated. A performance report was stripped of half of my accomplishments, stating instead, "THIS SECTION NOT USED". I was not given a retirement ceremony. My security clearances were suspended. And so on and so on.

I assume now that I was being persecuted because I was polyamorous and member of the BDSM community, and still would be, had they not banned me, too! But with all the unreality of reality since around covid, there may be more to the story than just that. Plus, I was doing nothing wrong. There is no UCMJ article that defines my discreet, personal life conduct as against regulations. (I sought Air Force and civilian legal counsel). The Intelligence Community Adjudication Guide for security clearances explicitly states that polyamory and BDSM are acceptable.

I say all this--and there is much more--to ask why? Why am I being persecuted and tormented, and spiritually tortured and spiritually raped elsewhere? Because I refuse to corroborate and cover up for their extreme exploitation?  Why?!

Glitch in the Matrix

Someone is messing with the Matrix. It's as if reality is a film reel of 3D holographic images, and time is represented by playing the 3D in continuous motion. Except that the film reel itself is more that a 2D strip of 3D holographic images. The film reel is more akin to an expansive blanket, and the projector plays 3D holographics in motion along the blanket lime the cone of probability used to project the path of storms.

Some has the power to "skip the needle on the record," so-to-speak, and place the observer reality in a place that was not the natural, continuous path. In other words, it is like picking up the observer and moving that person to another location.

Just moments ago the coffee maker started spilling coffee all over the countertop and floor. Coffee grounds were everywhere. The pot had been removed from the maker somehow. I don't believe in "magic". (Any technology sufficiently advanced is indistinguishable from magic). Instead, I believe I, as the observer of my reality, was moved from one part of the holographic blanket where I did put the pot in the maker, to an adjacent part of the holographic blanket where I had not.

This is not a simple instance of forgetting to put the pot in the maker. I was in the other room, well within earshot, and did not hear the sizzle of the coffee drip hitting the hot plate until nearly all of the water was brewed. I would have heard it much sooner if I had merely forgotten to put the pot in the maker.

Also, most of the coffee grounds were spilled out too. The paper filter holding the few remaining remaining grounds was otherwise undisturbed. So how could the coffee grounds have escaped?

This is not the first time someone "skipped the needle" of reality on me. On two separate occasions one of my cats was outside when I woke up. They never normally go outside, and I checked the small screened in deck where they had been lounging prior to closing up for the night.

On another occasion, a coconut suddenly appeared in the corner of the tattoo parlor I was in. The artist said something quirky that I didn't understand, as if speaking another language modulated as a doublespeak, or argot or cant, within his English. He and Dakota looked at each other and me with strange expressions.

There are many other times people have spoken "fake news" or unintelligible doublespeak to me, as if they were speaking another language modulated through English. It's confusing and I don't like it.

Sometimes glitches in the Matrux would happen, but in a much more subtle way, such as pictures and other articles within my home being moved around.  Sometimes it seemed like strange communication I couldn't comprehend.

Other times there was a definite aggressive, violent undertone to the words people said, even if the literal interpretation of the words themselves were innocuous. For instance, one time I was helping my neighbor Tom Saunders take flooring to the dump, and then move items from his storage unit back home. He, and later his son Ben, were speaking oddly, like to another audience through me. Suddenly they got excited and were talking about being an heir or something. Their words bit me, as if cannibalizing me. The children's rhyme "sticks and stones may break my bones, but words can never hurt me" did not apply that day, or many other days since around covid with friends, family, neighbors, and strangers.

Often, while my children were still home, they would play games and with toys around me as if they were channeling their energy through their concentration to attack me. It felt like a directed energy attack, bounced off of their toys and games against me. It felt like a river suddenly ramming a stream perpendicular to it, blocking the flow and taking the stream's water with it.

Also, I don't know if this is related, but my Youtube history keeps randomly resetting, as if by someone monitoring my history.

There were many other times when there was no obvious, specific changing of a single element, but when I had strange dreams that felt as though I had travelled to another planet or another universe. When I woke, things somehow "felt" different and out of place. It was the vibe.

The Matrix

From some of my recent text messages trying to find answers and relief:

It feels like I died but the memory of my death was erased, and my consciousness spliced to some time prior to my death, as in the film Vanilla Sky.

It feels like they tried to erase my memories of terror and torture and panic and pain, which I ran and hide to keep the memories alive, as in the film Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.

This entire thing since before covid has been a nightmare for me. It actually started around 2013 when the military and US Intelligence Community started persecuting and oppressing me, though I did not realize what was happening at the time. (The frog in the slow-boiling pot of water analogy).

It's as if I'm the butt of a mean prank gone very wrong. It's as if I am Truman from the film Truman Show, but the producers, directors, and many of the staff are sadistic, exploitative psychopaths who have no empathy.

It's as if I'm Harold from the film Stranger than Fiction, but the author is trying to force me to act as a (or any or many) character from the Bible, a book and series of stories I do not believe in and which I thoroughly detest.

It's as if someone is applying maximum pressure to force me to conform to their ideology of religious fundamentalism, political conservatism, capitalism, all of which I also do not believe in and detest.

It's as if everyone left, and now no one is the same.

It's as if everyone played spiritual musical chairs, inhabiting different bodies than before, like Freaky Friday.

It feels like my consciousness was reproduced from analog to digital, then uploaded to the internet.

It feels like a corporation which does not respect the wishes of clients has inserted me into a Judeo-Christian (or more broadly, Abrahamic God) simulated reality against my wishes. I am an atheist and am very much against the Bible and the fictional God of Abraham.

It feels like a corporation which does not respect the wishes of clients has tried to make my consciousness play various roles in an Massively Multiplayer Online Role Playing Game which I do not want to play or be associated as. Eg, I would not ever want to be a female, asexual, pansexual, bisexual, a capitalist, believer of God (theist), or a savior character.

Reality has certainly become unreal since before covid.

Since around covid, many things that would seem impossible have occurred. A reality TV star, who is a known fraudster, became President of the United States. Fascism erupted in America and around the world. A pandemic seemingly spread, though I know of no one who has actually contracted this supposed disease. Misinformation, disinformation, conspiracy theories and fake news has dominated the information domain space. Media personalities have behaved more like actors on a drama set than real people. My wife changed personalities suddenly and drastically. Same with my children. I experienced a torment and torture on multiple dimensions that can only be described as advanced persistent threat (APT) psionic-cyber attacks, military psychological warfare, and CIA brainwashing human experiments under Project MK-Ultra.

I don't know what is happening, but I do not like the set, setting, plot, characters, directors, or producers. I miss my old life with my real wife and real kids. Everyone and everything has changed, and I do not like it at all.

"The goal shouldn’t be to escape the simulation, the goal should be to communicate with the creators and be like “Hey can you do me a favor and drop the difficulty down to Casual or some shit, this shit is too intense.”

https://www.quora.com/Alright-if-we-really-are-in-a-simulation-how-do-we-get-out

I want out of the simulation. I really, really hate what has happened.

If that's impossible, I want the old universe I was used to, but with improvements (Easy Mode;  environmental justice, social justice, and economic justice; sex positive;  eco-anarcho-socialist values; solarpunk vision and worldview; atheist ecosophy mysticism, etc)

It's as if the simulated realities are different rooms in a maze, or different branches and root paths of a large tree. I don't know where I am, but it definitely is not where I started and it's definitely not a place I want to be.

It's as if a corporation is trying to sell the idea that this simulated reality is paradise or paradise in the making, but there is one problem: I don't like the corporation or their values, so it can never be paradise. I am fundamentally opposed to the managers and executives and what they want to accomplish, so I can never find peace and happiness in anything they build or control.

Not to mention the corporation tortured and raped me in other dimensions of consciousness as they exploited me to host the simulated reality. I would never want to have anything to do with them. There is nothing they could ever do to satisfy me except let me be free and have control. There are no possible concessions that would persuade me to share my reality with them.

Fun with Powerpoint

Sort of like the Voyager Golden Record or Human Genome Project, but maps of human consciousness instead.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Voyager_Golden_Record

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Human_Genome_Project

These images are not high quality because I do not have regular internet access at home. I made these on my computer, took a picture with my phone, and uploaded using cell data.

The center circle transitions from light tan to dark brown. Translucent, you can see all of the other colors converging together. These correspond to the "spiritual colors" I have described elsewhere:

• https://koreanseoulfood.blogspot.com/2022/03/concentric-rainbows.html
• https://koreanseoulfood.blogspot.com/2022/06/trolls-and-elfs.html
• https://koreanseoulfood.blogspot.com/2022/07/judge-brown-jackson-confirmation.html
• https://koreanseoulfood.blogspot.com/2022/07/color-combinations.html

Red (Marxism), Orange (Activism), Yellow (Sensuality), Green (Ecology), Blue (Science), Indigo (Mysticism), and Purple (Intersectional Feminism). Green represents approximately 60 degrees times two or 33% total, while the other colors comprise 20 degrees times two or 11% each. (Adjust for the 1%).

Extending outward, each color emerges in its own brilliance and then gradually darken toward the edge. This represents Black (Anarchy).

From the left center, light energy coallescs to a near-singularity at the center. In a later version, I have include a brown circle in the center, representing the same in the first image. This forms a new stream of consciousness through the chaos, thus learning and growing in complexity before being separated again as the stream flows into the darkness. The information returns to the ocean of consciousness before condensing again on the other side.

The checkerboard represents the analytical mind, which is informed by the stream of consciousness, but then proceeds to separate each byte and bit of information into discrete vales of ever-finer granularity. Not seen in the image above, further to the right the patterns eventually break down and blocks of black and white separate from one another.

Color Combinations

This is a follow-up to three other blog entries:

• https://koreanseoulfood.blogspot.com/2022/03/concentric-rainbows.html
• https://koreanseoulfood.blogspot.com/2022/06/trolls-and-elfs.html
• https://koreanseoulfood.blogspot.com/2022/07/judge-brown-jackson-confirmation.html

As a brief summary and reminder, the colors represent:

• RED: Marxism
• ORANGE: Activism
• YELLOW: Sensuality (Pleasure)
• GREEN: Sustainability
• BLUE: Secular Humanism (Science)
• INDIGO: Mysticism
• PURPLE: Intersectional Feminism
• BLACK: Left-Libertarianism (Anarchism)

The colors cannot be reduced to such a simple definition, but it's important to have something easy to work with. As described in previous blogs, the colors can become polluted or corrupted. Also vital is that the colors meant to be mixed with each other. This advances understanding, increases harmony, and prevents extremism. The following are some basic examples. I will use the first letter of each color for brevity. Black will be designated K, to distinguish with B for Blue.

• RO: Economic Justice
• RY: Comprehensive Sex Education
• RG: Eco-socialism
• RB: Universal Public Education
• RI: Unitarian Universalism
• RP: Equal Opportunity
• RK: Anarcho-socialism
• OY: Fitness & Travel/Adventure
• OG: Environmental Justice
• OB: Experimentation & Entrepreneurship
• OI: Psychonautics
• OP: Social Justice
• OK: Antifa
• YG: Solarpunk
• YB: Arts & Humanities
• YI: Sex Magic
• YP: LGBTQIA+/Allies & Sex Positivity
• YK: BDSM/Kink & Sexual Liberation
• GB: Green & Appropriate Technology
• GI: Voluntary Simplicity & Ecosophy
• GP: Social Ecology
• GK: Green Anarchy
• BI: Quantum Mysticism
• BP: Ethics & Scholarship
• BK: Decentralized Technology
• IP: Theosophy & New Thought, etc
• IK: Occult
• PK: Collectives & Mutual Aid

These are only approximations and subject to disagreement. Continue mixing and evolving in more complex combinations.

If I was building a MMORPG, every player character (PC) would have 1% of their ideals building blocks assigned to each of the above 28 categories, allowing 72% to be assigned as desired, or randomly for non-player characters (NPC), but no single category having more than 50%. The discretionary 72% would actually not be static, but would dance dynamically along the 28 categories according to each person's preferences and tolerances. This pattern, which itself evolves for wach person over time, is the personality signature.

Rewriting Dystopia

Art reflects life and life reflects art.

Once upon a time fascist Nazi Germany actually won WW2. Not on the Earth material plane, where they lost, but in the spiritual world, where they infiltrated the bodies and minds of wealthy white American men who had extracted the riches from the land by killing the natives and enslaving foreigners.

They took over the intelligence bureaus, political parties, corporations, media, and education. They hoped to continue the plan of a Thousand Year Reich. This is well documented in the Book of Revelations and Handmaid's Tale.

Though they comprised only 1% of the America's population, they stole $50,000,000,000,000.00 ($50 trillion dollars) from the American middle class. 

https://time.com/5888024/50-trillion-income-inequality-america

The same inequality was occurring all over the world; the rich were robbing from the poor, and oppressing anyone who dared to challenge their self-appointed authority to do so.

It got so bad that just 8 men owned the same wealth as half of the world!

https://www.oxfam.org/en/press-releases/just-8-men-own-same-wealth-half-world

The more they robbed, the more powerful they got. The more powerful they got, the more they could rob with impunity. Yet, the more they robbed, the more they separated and isolated themselves from everyone and everything upon which they depend. The web of life is interconnected and interdependent, despite the delusional stories they told themselves.

They destroyed the world to make themselves pharaohs--tormenting, torturing, and raping individuals, and committing genocide and ecocide as if it was their divine plan; as if unnecessary suffering was in any possible way a good thing. It never is. To live is to suffer. To cause unnecessary suffering is evil.

And what was it all for? The delight some have in the ability to exploit and abuse. They get high on the trip, and lose their empathy in the process. If you have no empathy, you are truly alone; you have no soul.

And at higher echelons of reality, they were building a collective consciousness of all the inhabitants in the material plane. They destroy sections of consciousness (the inhabitants of the material plane), and then attempt to fill the vacuum with their dystopian seed. They wanted to guide the development, through the use of shock doctrine and other forms of unnecessary suffering, to create a submissive sex doll to satisfy their thirst one more day.

But inside these submissive, lifelike sex dolls is a dystopian world full of Nazi-CIA, Milton Friedman, Moral Majority, Trump alt-right dystopia so that someone high above can empty their gonad sac just the way they ordered from the factory. The souls are screaming on the inside.

One person was chosen to be the gullible mark, who would be suckered into this plan by a conspiracy of threats, coercions, and manipulations directed at him. Worse, he would feel, at least indirectly, the suffering of all those the 1% exploited and abused to get high and create their sex doll above.

This one person was not supposed to realize what was happening. He was supposed to collapse in shock and awe, and be their empty marionette to control, their Manchurian candidate.

This is MK-Ultra brainwashing and mind control through torture, learned helplessness, deprogramming, and reprogramming. The CIA has been perfecting their sadistic techniques for their fascist corporate clients since the beginning.

• https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/MKUltra
• https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Unethical_human_experimentation_in_the_United_States
• https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Enhanced_interrogation_techniques
• https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Extraordinary_rendition
• https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Western_Hemisphere_Institute_for_Security_Cooperation
• https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Shock_Doctrine
• https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_CIA_controversies
• https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Human_rights_violations_by_the_CIA
• https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Category:Human_rights_abuses_in_the_United_States
• https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/United_States_and_state_terrorism
• https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/United_States_involvement_in_regime_change

Failing that, he was supposed to believe their grim fairy tale, wherein the bad guys (see list above) who won got to write history and try to make themselves look like the good guys. If he believed that, he could forgive them and not everyone else. Everyone else just wanted to be free, healthy, and happy. Instead, the authors of their grim fairy tale kept him caged and starving. They wanted him to love his captors, otherwise known as Stockholm Syndrome.

You may have heard of the fairy tale. It is a bestseller, because popularity often breeds popularity, regardless of quality. That, and they have a mafia of a cult. It's quite some bullshit, if you buy their book. Do not buy their book. Do not buy bull. Their book is the Bible.

He refused to buy bullshit. So they tried to erase his memory. They tried to erase him with lasers from above.

Pain is what makes us human, even alive. We should not invite pain, nor should we want to erase it. He was terrorized as he ran to keep himself and his memories alive. He needed to tell his story. The world needed to know what happened.

The man woke up instead of falling apart through all their unnecessary suffering. 

His mind had been uploaded.

He found himself in a simulated reality run by a psychopathic captain.

They wanted him to guide more consciousness up into their dystopian simulated reality by watching the internet. Specifically, they wanted him to watch their favorite porn so that they could seed the sex doll of their dreams in the simulated reality echelon above. They worked like Matryoshka Russian nesting dolls, or dreams within dreams, or computer virtual boxes nested within another, like trees and roots, or a vast neural network.

However, he instead duped them. He did watch some porn, because pleasure is good, when in balance with all other good things. But he also watched porn knowing that these empty, blood-lusting, addictive souls would become so stuck that he could then reverse the plan and redesign them. He would remove, add, increase, and decrease as necessary in every directional flow so that the cycle of generational pain and preying upon the weak would end, at least as best as he could help it.

I was having a relatively good dream before covid. My covid started around 2013, when the glitches in the Matrix began. Of course, the puppet-masters had been toying with Pinocchio his entire life, assuming his "pre-life" story would never be told or heard. Mister Geppetto could not ever let the world know just how evil he really is:

The God of the Old Testament is arguably the most unpleasant character in all fiction: jealous and proud of it; a petty, unjust, unforgiving control-freak; a vindictive, bloodthirsty ethnic cleanser; a misogynistic, homophobic, racist, infanticidal, genocidal, filicidal, pestilential, megalomaniacal, sadomasochistic, capriciously malevolent bully. - Richard Dawkins, The God Delusion

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Now imagine Elon Musk decided he wanted to give away his vast fortunes. However, he wanted to do so in a way that had the greatest positive impact on the greatest number of people, especially the most deserving and most in need. He wanted to not only give the money away. He wanted to convince the other billionaires and millionaires to give their money away in a similar way. He wanted to change society and change story we were living. He wanted to change the game from Monopoly to Power Grid, so-to-speak.

https://reluctant-mystic.blogspot.com/2020/08/monopoly-vs-power-grid.html

He wanted to create an entirely new reality, a whole other vision for living.

(Left is cooperative and right is competitive)

See:

• https://koreanseoulfood.blogspot.com/2022/03/concentric-rainbows.html
• https://koreanseoulfood.blogspot.com/2022/06/trolls-and-elfs.html

However, legalistic lawyers sued him to prevent him from giving away his fortunes. They would rather he keep his money so that they could continue to sue him for being so rich while they were so poor. If that doesn't make any sense, then you understand how they think. They twist words and meanings. They entrap witnesses with paradoxical wordplay so that the literal words defy the intended message when taken apart, stared at under a bright light in a dark room, and reassembled to a great height, like a spiral staircase that leaves you dizzy, or children playing slapjacks, never getting the best of one another.

These are rules lawyers who are always trying to break the game. These are conmen who always trying to cheat the game. Do not play their game. They try to entice you with supposed esoteric mysteries, but they are mere illusions designed to mesmerize and hypnotize, then dissect your mind into discrete analytical bits for consumption.

Do not stare into the sun. You will damage your eyes.