Mind castle sappers got under my consciousness and into my subconsciousness, then worked to undermine my consent by "inception" planting images and using hypnosis suggestions to transform me into a female, or at least non-binary, for them to use. They used terror and torture to try to force me into surrender.
They also tried to force me into their super straight, non-binary (alternating each consciousness level), monogamist, vanilla, patriarchal, fascist, capitalist, conservative mostly intolerant, mostly exclusive, misogynist, white supremacist, fundamentalist Christian theocratic culture.
I kept refusing, insisting I am a mostly heterosexual, male at every level of consciousness, ethical non-monogamy, maledom kinky, egalitarian, anarcho-syndicalist, socialist, leftist, mostly tolerant, mostly inclusive, intersectional feminist, minority empowering, agnostic secular humanist.
I am just about the exact opposite of who they are, so they destroyed me from the inside to try to remake me in their image.
This war has been going on essentially since childhood abuse, but the latest battle started around 2013 when they started dismantling my life in this plane of existence and the CIA conducting psychological operations against me (including drug experiments); "sapping below" and raping and torturing and murdering me and many others; raping torturing my "doll body" above; and various other insane tortures in simulated realties "online" between here and "up there". This is the intense, unimaginable suffering.
I have been sending out messages like this, hoping someone will receive the messages and be able to help.
I don't want to die, but I also don't want to live anymore.